I BELIEVE ….. OR DO I?

I am one of those wavering faith people. I read the Bible and I know it’s for everyone. but in the back of my mind I’m thinking “but is it really for me”. Are all those wonderful promises in the Word really really for me as well as everyone else? Really? Don’t I have to be good to get them? Aren’t they just for the really spiritual people? Would I be presumptuous in being so bold as to grab a hold of them like they are just for me?
In Matthew I read that Jesus visits His home town and people are impressed by His wisdom and His teaching. They know about His mighty miracles. They are very well informed. Instead of wanting to be blessed by the Lord something else happens.

Jesus doesn’t commend them for what they know. No, sadly Jesus does very little there because of their unbelief. They knew about what wonderful things he could do for people …. but it didn’t make them trust Him, or believe in Him. 
Here is what Matthew says:

He (Jesus) went to his hometown and began to teach them in their synagogue, so that they were astonished and said, “Where did this man get this wisdom and these miraculous powers? Isn’t this the carpenter’s son? Isn’t his mother called Mary, and his brothers James, Joseph, Simon, and Judas? And his sisters, aren’t they all with us? So where does he get all these things?” And they were offended by him. Jesus said to them, “A prophet is not without honour except in his hometown and in his household.” And he did not do many miracles there because of their unbelief. Mt 13:53-58 CSB

Wow. They missed out. Big time. Jesus did very little there because of their unbelief. What miracles am I looking for? Do I miss out because I “know” the Lord but I hold back from fully grabbing ahold of Him? What mighty work do I want Jesus to do for me?
I want to change. Do I believe Jesus can bring about great changes in me? My habits. My character. My food issues. I want Jesus to do a mighty work in these areas. My food stronghold – I want Him to break it. Forever.

Will I miss out on the miracle of change because of my unbelief? Will I miss out on freedom because I won’t boldly come and believe? Do I want to go away empty like they did because of unbelief? No no no. I don’t want to miss out. Who am I going to put my faith in – me and my puny efforts (not worked before) or God? Am I going to back myself when I can have God’s help instead? Am I going to look somewhere else or at Jesus for help to gain the victory over food addiction? What do I miss out on because I don’t put my trust in the rock solid words and works of Jesus?
My life in the hands of Jesus results in my life being changed, vices broken, victories won, old habits abandoned and new ones replacing them, my mind renewed, sin broken and my character remodelled. Why wouldn’t I want to get under the yoke with Jesus? (Matthew 11:28-30)
I will never know what Jesus can do with me unless I just let go and let Him take the reigns. Yes, I will believe.